Do you ever get annoyed with life?
I’m currently feeling all of the synonyms of the word. Irritation, exasperation, vexation, indignation…I could go on for hours.
an·noy·anceəˈnoiəns/nounthe feeling or state of being annoyed; irritation.“a look of annoyance on his face”
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I am definitely in a state of being annoyed; irritation to the max.
Today hasn’t been the best mood day. In fact, it’s been quite filled up with excessive tiredness and irritability; annoyance. That’s just the unknown of the chemical imbalance of the brain. Some days it wants to put out enough serotonin, and some days, namely today, it doesn’t. So, I’m annoyed.
I’m often asked what my triggers are; what makes me spiral down hill? Well, unfortunately, my triggers are the good ol’ responsibilities of life; can’t part with those too easily. I’ve had to be hospitalized when I’ve gotten to the unbearable point of severe anaphylactic shock from responsibilities of life. No, I’m not there today, thank God, but responsibilities, motherhood, wifehood, heck personhood, are not compatible with this mood that I’m in.
The safe bet, when you are in this state of severe chemical imbalance, is to grab a life line. Have someone take care of the kids, stop doing the laundry, get some alone time, draw, write, or do something that has nothing to do with the responsibilities of life.
No lifeline today for me.
Derrick is sick with God knows what, and I’m just the same ol sick in the head, with severe trigger issues with responsibilities (that was a little harsh on myself).
So, I’m waiting patiently, inwardly crying as I endure the screams of my 18 month old after her older sister decided to turn rogue on her and push her, among so many other noises and things to do that are so overwhelming.
Then, just as I am writing this, as I was silently praying for a lifeline, here comes my sick husband to the rescue. The crying has stopped, I am writing in my own space, and the responsibilities have dwindled for the time being. Relief…